Wife?

Would you like to know what you looked like last time you were alive? Or to see what your significant other looked like the last time the two of you were together in a different life? There is an exercise that anyone can do. It's free and the only things required are patience and time. 

Believe me, I'm the first one to tell you these things are crazy. And that I'm making them up.

I'm not, however, making these things up. I thought this was all crazy too, when I first started. And if I'm being completely honest, most of me still doesn't believe any of the things I do and experience are real. That's why I always pray for God to give me signs in the physical realm- and OH BOY does God ALWAYS show me this stuff is for real!

I'll get to how I came to believe in past lives at a different time, in the mean time, know that I've only come to believe in these things since having children.

When my oldest was around ten, I asked him if he wanted to do an exercise with me. He's sensitive like me and has always enjoyed these games and exercises I do with him. I took him into a room that was quiet and dimly lit (think deep dusk) with enough light so we could see good, but not bright like noon-time. I instructed him, "we have to stare at each other in the eyes, and not break eye contact for a long time, ok? Our brains are going to do some crazy things and the theory is that our faces will change into the last time we were together. Wanna try?"

Sebastian excitedly agreed. We began. 

We both have clowns living right beneath our skin, so sitting and staring at each other without laughing or giggling took us a good 20 minutes. But finally, we calmed down enough to hold eye contact.

The first few things our brains did was scary for both of us. Your brain will contort the face you're looking at and make the person's eyes appear very large, like an aliens. And the FINAL step, right before the magic happens, is the face you're staring at will COMPLETELY disappear. This is where you have to hold on. You can blink, but you CANNOT look away, or else your brain will start the process all over again.

As we sat there, in the darkish, my baby's beautiful sun-kissed skin turned into mocha colored skin, that looks like mine. His big, light brown, baby eyes turned into little, beady, black, almond shaped eyes and his skin was deeply set with wrinkles, as if he'd spent every day of his entire life in the sun. My baby turned into an 80 year old man right before my eyes. I sat, silently, bewildered at the sight. At the love pouring out of my baby's eyes. Sebastian's expression grew to a delightful surprise and he whispered, "Mommy, your face looks like a little old Chinese lady!" and I grinned and said, "And yours looks like an ancient little Chinese man's!" he said "your eyes are so little and black!" I replied, "so are yours baby!" and then he blinked, shook his head, cocked it to one side and quizzically asked, "WIFE?" I chuckled and said, "that would explain a lot about our relationship, actually." Then his body softened, he looked me all over, and lovingly said, "hello wife." I giggled through my nose, grinning at my patient baby and said, "Hello little husband." and the magic was over.

This is something anyone can do. Sebastian has told me he's since done it in the mirror alone and that since it was just him, the face appeared much quicker for him. I've tried a couple times, but I seem to do best when I'm doing this with someone else.

Be warned, this is a very intimate thing to do. You should be very close to the person you're practicing this with.

I read once, in "Conversations with God" that God told the author "If everyone held eye contact, they would all fall in love with each other." Not that I'm saying you'll fall into romantic love, but your relationship may fall into a deeper state of "knowing" for sure. I love my son very much, but I will say, this gave us a little extra something... knowing we've loved each other before, in more ways than we can imagine.

Try it and let me know how it works out for you. Don't feel stupid and remember to HOLD ON past the scary parts of what your brain will do to the face you're staring at :)

We've all been here before. We get an infinite amount of tries to "get it right." And we are always loved far more than we can fathom.